c'mon shake yo' body baby do that conga!
i've got some ideas bouncing in my head. not necessarily rational, but exciting. or at the very least, better.
should i choose to embark on this mission, would i disappoint some people (mainly certain members of my family)?
probably. but they never understood me anyway. i'm not LIKE them.
i wonder what they would say. i'd have to explain that i don't have many chances to be happy. that i, no matter how badly i wish it, will never have it come to me as easily as it did for them. for many reasons - some of which i brought on myself, some of which are out of my control entirely. i didn't get to have these things fall into my lap. i've made bad decisions, i've sacrificed a lot of myself...to no avail.
so, if i try something...new, different, and scary, do i REALLY have that much to lose?
would they be able to see past their self-centered agendas to see that what i need is not necessarily what they need? would they be able to accept that?
only one way to find out, i suppose.
once again, it's time to break out the Excel spreadsheets! meredith's got a project to take on!
(i love projects)
posted by: less-than3
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