dim
(because caring often gets you no where)
i'm falling straight into the ground, yet still hanging on for dear life. for what reason? what purpose?
i can't help but feel the sting of rejection that has (unknowingly) been stabbed into me. i am feeling 12th rate and worthless. what am i doing sitting around here waiting for?
what's sad is that THIS is no secret. this is no surprise. but nothing gets done and this never ending circle of sadness continues to surround me.
how much do i have to do? what more must i offer?
i dreamt last night that i was drowning under water and under glass. i dreamt that i had to kill a child so my sister wouldn't kill ME. i dreamt that i blew up a giant hole in the family room.
i just want to be NEEDED. but i'm not needed.
and i'm so afraid that no one will ever want to "learn" me again.
my heart is breaking, and i'm slipping away more and more with each passing day.
(unnoticed)
posted by: less-than3
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