hello? *cough* hello?
hello? hello? can you hear me? begging for something?
i'd love a decent night's sleep. or at least to not be coughing so hard that it wakes me up. i'd love to not be out-of-sight-out-of-mind, but hell, no matter whether i am 4 feet or 4000 miles away, that will NEVER ever change.
the door shuts without a word goodbye.
a day passes without a word hello.
so i sleep. cough. sleep some more.
i'm typing. overanalyzing and twisting my words to hide what should be said in the simplest of phrases. but the TRUTH is always the recipe for disaster. not to say that i lie. i just want to make people work for the truth. the IMPORTANT truth. if you want to know, then you have to make the effort.
(no one ever, ever does. or they lose interest in continuing the endeavour. i never said it was easy, love)
live versions of cover songs from a recording of a concert i went to a year and a half ago, and i know i should hit delete. wipe the song away like i did all traces of the time since then.
and now it's happening again. maybe i need to forget it all. i'm throwing away more than i save. maybe i've subconsciously created my terrible memory-span on purpose. as if i knew, far in advance, that there will be few things ever worth keeping.
i wish i was one of those things.
posted by: less-than3
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