meredithelaine
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i believe in you, i'd give up everything...


2005-01-05 The current mood of meredithelaine at www.imood.com

maybe i do have a magical power. i don't know if it has worked yet. and i didn't even mean to try. it just happened.

somehow, the sadness has soaked into me. i don't want to talk. the away message is in full effect.

i spent a HUGE portion of today reading blogs via blogexplosion. all these brilliant thoughts. minds of politics and computer-savvy. thoughts and poetry and day-to-day ramblings of people who have ever-more fantastic lives than i do. lives that i WANT. displays of photos of trips and nieces and significant others and...everything.

i can only hope that i mopped up the sadness and frustration from a certain one. i want to take it all on myself.

i'm not terribly good at being happy. i've had too many years of depression - it's a skill i've acquired: how to deal with it (i doubt it's a marketable skill i can place on my resume).

depression - it's better placed upon myself. if i had to throw away the meds and drown my sorrows every night, forever, it would be worth it. if it took away every ounce of what makes the certain one unhappy.

god, would it ever be worth it.


posted by: less-than3

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8:57 p.m.
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