i'd never lie to you - unless i had to; i'll do what i got to
i'm good, thanks.
if sleeping all day and staying up almost all night is "good."
not much is going on.
i cry almost daily - i suppose that's nothing new.
i've busy looking for jobs and interviewing.
not that i want to work here or stay here. i'm confused and have no idea what to do.
i've been working out, trying to get healthy, you know.
cursing myself out because i eat way too much and don't work out nearly as much as i used to. a year and a half ago, it was easy to work out 2 hours a day and live on one meal a day. now it's so hard...i get more and more discouraged by the day. i'm already fading in some ways; i need to fade THIS way, too.
eh, most nights i'm just chillin' at home.
losing myself in writing and reading and letting myself slip further from reality. dreaming up some sort of cure, or at least a temporary escape.
you have a beautiful smile, and beautiful eyes.
the smile that hides so much, and the eyes that grow more lifeless by the day.
yeah, i went out this weekend and had a blast.
i needed the company of good friends so i could laugh again. i needed to get shitfaced so i could forget. i may just have to do it all again this weekend.
i just want to be free of what hurts me so badly. drug it like you would a cancer; cut it like you would a tumor. i am craving touch - something gentle, conveying all the messages a soul needs to hear.
i've memorized my lullaby -- i sing it; i'm fine.
posted by: less-than3
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