if THIS entry gets eaten too, i'm giving up
there's a fucking shock.
today's one of those "throw myself off a cliff" days. the ones when i know that the littlest thing, will set me off. make me cry.
or maybe, i have reached the point of apathy. that i just don't care anymore.
i have no hope. not in my life. not in my country. not in my future.
so what the hell is the fucking point? why am i even bothering? i hate having the feeling that i have nothing to live for.
just endless days, endless nights, endless poverty, endless failure, endless unrequitedness, endless invisibility, endless sadness...
i want to, but i cannot, escape. i don't know how. i don't want to do it alone. and i don't have the means.
trapped in the unfulfillment of a life that, most of the time, i hate.
i wasn't meant to be happy, i guess.
posted by: less-than3
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