i'm counting UFOs; i signal them with my lighter

i miss my quiet, internet-addicted existence. i miss feeling safe in the arms of my boyfriend. i miss feeling safe in the company of friends that i've never met in person, or have only see once or twice. maybe i've never spoken to them on the phone. i miss my college friends, who, whenever i say something completely random and bizarre, they say: "that's our meredith" with an inflection of endearment. i miss my best friend from high school, who is busy being a suburban mother in connecticut. i miss my estranged best friend from high school, who i've recently gotten back in contact with. i miss feeling safe in the world and comfortable in my own skin. i miss feeling like i can trust people.

the hole in me (my heart) right now is so huge.

make it better. take it away. save me. please.

posted by: less-than3

spoke the truth!

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9:24 p.m.
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