i'm starting to panic...wait...
and everything will be OK...
-- dashboard confessional
there are thoughts that scare me. but in a good way. if that's possible, which i believe it is.
caffeine, sugar and miscellaneous other things to get me through the day, after other thoughts and activities have drained me. (again, in a good way)
you know how i do. you know how my mind goes. bouncing from happy to sad to paranoid to euphoric to...okay. there's a lot of irrationality inside of me, which i hate.
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there's something about standing on a hill, listening to the music, with someone's arms wrapped around you. okay. more than someone. someone. with italics. i should probably have bolded that as well.
ok. went back and did that.
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the lesson learned, time and again, is that it does NOT get easier. i still cry. actually more than i have previously. but it's not from a bad thing. well, it is, but yet not. i'm happy, make no mistake. but it is the uncertainty of "when, again?" that makes me cry.
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(in case you actually need to ask, yes, i had a lovely weekend. thank you very much.)
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must breathe. must relax. however impossible i know that it is to do (in my world), i must at least try.
posted by: less-than3
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