i'm the only one that floats below the rest of the angels
i'm terrified now.
maybe i was dumb to go back on the anti-depressant? because now i have made some sort of rash decision, without a plan, without a back up.
what the hell was i thinking?
and i can't take it back. better for my psyche, but not better for my bank account.
i'm supposed to be an adult now! i'm supposed to be settled and calm and complacent, and for god's sakes, have my shit together!
i have none of this. i will never have any of this. i was not meant to live the life that others do. sometimes i think that i was not meant to...
i just don't know what to do.
i feel so fucking alone. i've been shaking all day. i can't hold a pen or a cigarette without nearly dropping it.
layers upon layers, and i'm still freezing. i don't feel safe. i'm so very, very scared...
sometimes, i really just don't believe that my luck will ever change. and i don't believe that i will survive (it all).
where am i going?
posted by: less-than3
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