i need to get fucked up tonight.
...shakedown at work: coming soon.
i'm trapped here.
when people are abandoning ship...i can't be another one, you know?
godfuckingdammit.
my life is just getting worse by the day. i wanted out...but now i have to stay. i can't leave and have this office be ONE person.
basically, i need to get really sick or die right now, in order to get out of this. neither of which are happening, so i'm just trapped in this life and this world and this fucking state and job that i hate.
no future. none.
i need to shut down. that's all there is to it. it's not worth it to invest myself in anything anymore. my dreams, what little tiny particles of dreams i have left, will NEVER come to fruition. i am going to live like this and die like this. held captive in this oppressive death-like atmosphere.
i can't even make little short-term-plan-like dreams...because they've been hacked into pieces.
i haven't felt this low in over 7 months.
i don't know what to do...because there's nothing i can do...
posted by: less-than3
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