i suggest you all roll with da clique who you wit
i smiled. she said "she thinks i'm kidding."
i said "no, i know you're serious."
whoa.
so basically, come january, i'll be, if all goes according to plan, the staffing coordinator.
they said, "we'll get a temp to handle the phones...", so basically, they are damn serious.
god. the faith they have in me, is like no faith anyone has ever had in me. ever. that i could do a good job. i could advance. be promoted from within.
that's something that's always been unfathomable (infathomable?) to me.
but it's a very beautiful thing.
except.
i really was hoping to eventually get out of hatfield. sooner rather than later.
sometimes i still think of abandoning all this and getting back into retail. yes, a step back, money-wise, but i loved it. i could move somewhere less expensive to live.
or i could move back to jersey. which would just be...good. i think. maybe.
or somewhere else. new. of course, that was the whole point of the "philadelphia experiment", and we all know how well THAT went.
there are a million routes i could take. and i just don't know.
how do you choose the right place to go to? the right path to take? i just feel like i keep making bad choice after bad choice. and granted, it all becomes an experience to learn from.
but quite honestly, i'm sick of learning. i want to be living. i want some absolutes ("to absolut!" - sorry, a quote from RENT, the best musical EVER).
you know. the same ol' shit i complain about. i feel as if i should HAVE my shit together.
i can't win. at work, i get made fun of because i'm the "baby" of the office, but in the next breath, they're making comments about how i'm getting old, because i'm turning 29 in mere days.
TWENTY FUCKING NINE.
i'm psyched. quite honestly. just because it's not about age. it's about BIRTHDAYS. a day that's all you. so live it up and be the attention whore that you deserve to be on your birthday. i've already started getting early presents and cards. this makes me so happyhappy.
just because. you know. it makes me feel loved. all squishy and stuff.
i'm so having a huge party for my 30th birthday. i may even have a prom-re-enactment. because my prom experiences fucking SUCKED.
i'd like to get all dressed up and pretty again. and ride up somewhere in a stretch navigator. sippin' the cristal. oh yes.
but that's off topic. right now, it's all about 29. and saturday. and...
all of it.
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