a r c h i v e s
2008-10-06 :: i wish i lived in wisconsin. or minnesota. or the arctic circle2008-04-28 :: i don't know where to turn.
2008-04-09 :: look at all the lonely people
2008-03-29 :: i know why
2008-03-16 :: investment
2008-03-13 :: the song remains the same
2008-03-06 :: never did i think i'd be back
2007-08-26 :: where in the world is meredithelaine?
2007-04-17 :: get out now, before you break anymore hearts
2007-04-15 :: if i was invisible...wait, i already am
2007-04-06 :: lemon tree, very pretty...
2007-03-29 :: x-posted (sorry i'm lazy today)
2007-03-26 :: pop goes the world
2007-03-20 :: still sick, what else is new?
2007-03-16 :: hide and seek
2007-03-04 :: i got my haircut! woo!
2007-03-01 :: i wouldn't spend my life just wishing
2007-02-26 :: work and song
2007-02-22 :: movin' on up
2007-02-20 :: fix me in forty-five
2007-02-10 :: but now, who's gonna dance with me?
2007-02-06 :: i'll feel the power, but you won't
2007-02-05 :: you never would expect from a girl like me
2007-01-23 :: who's fat?
2007-01-21 :: i'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart
2007-01-19 :: run run run run, run run run away...
2007-01-17 :: will i wake tomorrow from this nightmare?
2007-01-13 :: don't call it a comeback...but then again, maybe it is?
2007-01-13 :: don't call it a comeback...but then again, maybe it is?
2007-01-03 :: give me one reason to stay here, and i'll turn right back around
2006-12-29 :: as long as the room keeps singin', that's just the business i'm in
2006-12-19 :: big shot
2006-12-17 :: i am not your friend, i'm not your lover, i'm not your family, yeah...
2006-11-13 :: this just in: where to begin?
2006-11-04 :: just keep making copies of copies of copies - when will it end?
2006-10-29 :: 'til the landslide brought it down
2006-10-28 :: second wind
2006-10-26 :: mama, i don't wanna die, i sometimes wish i'd never been born at all...
2006-10-21 :: can you forgive me again?
2006-10-19 :: already, i'm wasting away
2006-10-17 :: and the record won't stop skipping
2006-10-09 :: music box
2006-10-04 :: tic, tac, time goes by
2006-10-03 :: at least i managed to get my laundry done, too
2006-09-30 :: there's about 4 songs in my head at once right now - it's one hell of a fucked-up mashup
2006-09-26 :: illuminate the NOs on their VACANCY signs
2006-09-24 :: the doves have died; the lovers have lied
2006-09-21 :: good stuff, gimme some of that good stuff
2006-09-20 :: gently down the stream (of consciousness)
2006-09-19 :: if you let me be your hollywood
2006-09-18 :: i ain't missin' you at all since you've been gone away
2006-09-17 :: your friends they stand beside as you were flying
2006-09-15 :: prescribed pills, to offset the shakes, to offset the pills
2006-09-12 :: just like a pill
2006-09-09 :: there's no place else i could be
2006-09-08 :: uberlong entry, and i'll be late to work again.
2006-09-04 :: back to back confettified anniversaries
2006-09-03 :: 5 month milestone
2006-08-31 :: hips don't lie
2006-08-30 :: was what i did so wrong, so wrong...that you had to leave me alone?
2006-08-27 :: i wonder why i'm so caught off guard
2006-08-27 :: these dreams go one when i close my eyes; every second of the night i live another life
2006-08-24 :: walk on the ocean
2006-08-22 :: i don't have the heart to hurt you; it's the last thing i want to do
2006-08-20 :: here's the thing, we started off friends...
2006-08-19 :: it's eric's birthday today!!!
2006-08-18 :: it takes my pain away
2006-08-17 :: where'd you go? i miss you so...
2006-08-15 :: ...this time it will be forever
2006-08-15 :: scampi - italian for "there's garlic in here, dumbass. even if you can't taste it, trust me, there IS..."
2006-08-13 :: i glide to the side until the spotlight is mine, and never sabotage a good time
2006-08-11 :: take a look at my girlfriend
2006-08-09 :: this is what it sounds like, when doves cry
2006-08-08 :: c'mon, bring it!
2006-08-07 :: i've got more wit
2006-08-03 :: i am the luckiest
2006-07-31 :: we gonna sip bacardi like it's yo' birthday!
2006-07-25 :: purple rain, purple rain...
2006-07-24 :: how close is close enough?
2006-07-24 :: louder now, louder now
2006-07-22 :: happy birthday to meeeeeee (in 9 days!)...
2006-07-20 :: so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight or die
2006-07-19 :: to dream the impossible dream...
2006-07-17 :: to drinks at the club
2006-07-15 :: it's hard for me to say i'm sorry, i just want you to know
2006-07-12 :: 'cause EVERYTHING IS RENT!!!!!
2006-07-09 :: you better hope and pray that you wake one day in your own world
2006-07-06 :: if someone said count your blessings now
2006-07-05 :: stop me if you've read this one before...
2006-07-04 :: anniversarific
2006-07-02 :: wild horses couldn't drag me away
2006-06-30 :: job or no job?
2006-06-28 :: green light, 7-11, you stop in for a pack of cigarettes
2006-06-27 :: you put the lime in the coconut (add some frozen yogurt, some ice, some raspberries, and you've got yourself a smoothie!)
2006-06-27 :: it's the what in the WHAT???
2006-06-25 :: another loser anthem
2006-06-22 :: late at night when all the world is sleeping
2006-06-21 :: but only part of the time
2006-06-20 :: what's the buzz? tell me what's a-happenin'
2006-06-19 :: can we take a ride? get out of this place while we still have time?
2006-06-18 :: another one bites the dust
2006-06-15 :: isn't it messed up, how i'm just dying to be her?
2006-06-14 :: heyna? or no?
2006-06-13 :: show me, show me, show me a starry-eyed kid
2006-06-12 :: tonight you calm my restlessness; you relieve my sadness
2006-06-11 :: i'm always wrapped up in things i cannot win
2006-06-09 :: another example of "if meredith talks about it, she jinxes it"
2006-06-08 :: i never knew how long a day could be
2006-06-06 :: well, which would you prefer...?
2006-06-05 :: ...we both chased...
2006-06-04 :: ain't that the way it always ends?
2006-06-01 :: step inside, walk this way. you and me, babe. HEY HEY!
2006-05-29 :: i watch it go from left to right
2006-05-27 :: i am walking after you
2006-05-25 :: just an imposter
2006-05-23 :: photopost & some more stuff
2006-05-22 :: wouldn't live there, though
2006-05-21 :: taking back sunday speaks the truth!
2006-05-20 :: doing stuff i would've never done; seein stuff i would've never seen
2006-05-18 :: i think my body is bored, so it's getting sick for lack of anything better to do
2006-05-17 :: unaccessorized
2006-05-16 :: seriously, don't read this if you're easily icked out or queasy (this goes in the TMI file) - also x-posted at myspace
2006-05-15 :: hear ye, hear ye! OFFICIAL EMAIL CHANGE!
2006-05-14 :: email personality poll of sorts
2006-05-12 :: my window is right over the entrance to the freeway
2006-05-09 :: floating on a happy cloud
2006-05-07 :: someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection -- the lovers, the dreamers, and me
2006-05-04 :: gonna be some sweet sounds, comin' down on the nightshift
2006-05-02 :: i won't say these words that i've said before
2006-04-28 :: what are you waiting for? kiss her! kiss her!
2006-04-25 :: i guess i need a xanax or something
2006-04-25 :: i tried to get the pole out of my ass, only to have to stick another pole down my throat
2006-04-24 :: this is what it sounds like, when doves cry
2006-04-23 :: yes, i'm a white girl from the burbs of new jersey, and i'm going to bitch about hip-hop. you gotta problem with that? (that's not all i talk about in this entry, though)
2006-04-21 :: just some musings on insecurity
2006-04-20 :: let's try this again...
2006-04-18 :: with a message of love...
2006-04-15 :: the sun'll come out tomorrow
2006-04-13 :: my first "meredith story" from San Diego!
2006-04-11 :: so just ask the question
2006-04-09 :: dream a little dream of me...
2006-04-07 :: it's just a silly phase i'm going through
2006-04-05 :: i don't wanna be a stupid girl
2006-04-03 :: i'm here, never fear.
2006-03-31 :: you're gone...you're gone away
2006-03-28 :: 'cause then you'll find my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
2006-03-26 :: hello, is it me you're looking for?
2006-03-25 :: reality scares me to death
2006-03-24 :: no diggity, no doubt (aka, the spirit of '96)
2006-03-23 :: it's a big enough umbrella, but it's always me that ends up getting wet
2006-03-19 :: i like cold beverages...
2006-03-18 :: round here
2006-03-16 :: if you like pina coladas
2006-03-14 :: i will shy away from the specifics
2006-03-13 :: i swear, i say
2006-03-10 :: hate is a strong word
2006-03-09 :: so put it up on your face, hallelujah
2006-03-07 :: i just need some time, some time to get away
2006-03-03 :: feel it in your chest
2006-03-02 :: spend your nights here
2006-03-01 :: i'm back. sick, but back
2006-02-28 :: airport
2006-02-26 :: reppin' jersey at karaoke night does NOT mean i'm singing bruce springsteen, okay...?
2006-02-24 :: i'm here! i'm safe! i'm EXHAUSTED!
2006-02-20 :: give it all you've got
2006-02-19 :: and we're praying it's not too late...
2006-02-17 :: ever closer, and EVEN closer when you take days off
2006-02-14 :: i could drink a case of you, and i would still be on my feet
2006-02-14 :: tell me what you think of me!
2006-02-12 :: cuppycakes
2006-02-08 :: easily replaced
2006-02-07 :: never knew what i was missing...
2006-02-05 :: it's been a day; somehow survived it
2006-02-04 :: we've got too much time to kill
2006-02-02 :: i would never ever leave
2006-02-01 :: anger management
2006-01-31 :: i have good news to share - so why aren't i doing cartwheels or something?
2006-01-30 :: so i might as well sleep
2006-01-30 :: pervy russians! i love you all!
2006-01-29 :: playlist whaaa..???zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
2006-01-27 :: the other admin is leaving at 11 or 1130 this morning, which leaves me alone for the rest of the day, which means today will surely SUCK ASS!
2006-01-25 :: 4 you to read! or not....
2006-01-23 :: THEEEEE talk: mission accomplished
2006-01-21 :: one time, one place, one more
2006-01-21 :: depression settles in my brain in the form of a migraine
2006-01-20 :: this is THEEEE WEEKEND for THEEEE LETTER!
2006-01-18 :: why don't you show me a little bit of spark you've been saving for his mattress
2006-01-16 :: i'm gonna keep it strong, i'll be holdin' on
2006-01-15 :: mememememe
2006-01-14 :: west milford may float away today
2006-01-10 :: happy de-lurking week!
2006-01-07 :: don't just stand there, bust a move!
2006-01-04 :: and if we stand apart, we'll kiss goodbye
2006-01-03 :: have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
2005-12-28 :: goin' back to cali, cali, cali...
2005-12-26 :: manic panic!
2005-12-25 :: i BEST better be mentioned in the liner notes!
2005-12-24 :: this entry shall be cross-posted everywhere i write, thanks
2005-12-23 :: fall on your knees...
2005-12-20 :: happy christmahanakwazakah to you!
2005-12-19 :: sleep, slimfast shakes and chocolate chip cookies
2005-12-17 :: i don't even know what's IN egg nog, but i want some. EXTRA strong
2005-12-17 :: rockin' around morris county
2005-12-16 :: it's like not even getting a raise at all
2005-12-15 :: dotdotdot dashdash dotdotdot
2005-12-12 :: i'll just leave it at this
2005-12-11 :: will they stand their ground
2005-12-10 :: a 911 call is not the way to start a saturday
2005-12-06 :: my holiday
2005-12-05 :: hey mariah, you on fiyah!
2005-12-04 :: sad sunday
2005-12-04 :: value
2005-12-03 :: you've got me inside, outside, spinning all around
2005-12-02 :: whaaaaaaaa?
2005-12-01 :: when i'm weak, i draw strength from you
2005-11-30 :: but what good would livin' do me?
2005-11-29 :: we are more fragile, and you just don't understand that
2005-11-28 :: which scares me to no end
2005-11-27 :: didn't make it to staples, CVS or the car wash
2005-11-27 :: the world would still go on, believe me
2005-11-26 :: but it's never good enough to feel right
2005-11-25 :: blacked out
2005-11-24 :: black friday advice! SOS!
2005-11-23 :: for the first time, i can hear my heart sing
2005-11-22 :: wow, i'm awake and coherent enough to update!
2005-11-20 :: insane amounts of insanity!
2005-11-19 :: are you gheyyyy?
2005-11-18 :: homeopathic remedies of sorts
2005-11-17 :: physical and mental health day
2005-11-16 :: map
2005-11-15 :: is it still me that makes you sweat?
2005-11-15 :: ...what i can't have
2005-11-13 :: hello? *cough* hello?
2005-11-12 :: witdawindacrakhallabak
2005-11-10 :: nanowrimo
2005-11-10 :: i need a decongestant and a throat losenge, please!
2005-11-09 :: you treat me like a random chick?
2005-11-08 :: vehicular strife!
2005-11-07 :: and i'm making advances
2005-11-06 :: i have no idea what it means, either
2005-11-05 :: on the way home, this car hears my confessions
2005-11-03 :: pointless waste of diaryland's bandwidth
2005-11-01 :: this can't be healthy
2005-10-31 :: maybe it's better that daylight savings is over. less sunlight = less time i have to be awake
2005-10-30 :: Helga the Heroic!
2005-10-30 :: i am the cutest viking EVER
2005-10-28 :: referrals and concert tickets
2005-10-27 :: another reason why i want to escape this hellish house
2005-10-26 :: and with that...i'm going to bed
2005-10-26 :: drank my conscience away
2005-10-25 :: just another manic mond...oh wait, it's tuesday
2005-10-24 :: the joys of (not so) impulse buying
2005-10-23 :: and now i cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing
2005-10-22 :: torture at quarter to three
2005-10-21 :: semi-resembling an update
2005-10-20 :: any time is random quiz time! even 6am! i'm going back to bed now
2005-10-19 :: how does it feel? i can't describe this feelin'
2005-10-18 :: dot com diva
2005-10-18 :: vengeful and spiteful. cranky and bitter.
2005-10-16 :: because of you, i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
10.15.05 :: this entry is sponsored by Stop N Shop granola
2005-10-14 :: and i'm crying...because i'm LAUGHING???
2005-10-13 :: just put me inside you; i would never ever leave
2005-10-12 :: an answer comes without a "please?"
2005-10-11 :: horrible
2005-10-09 :: i have one-month's rent saved up so far
2005-10-08 :: stuff like this makes me never want to leave the house again
2005-10-07 :: whoa druuuuuunk!
2005-10-05 :: like so many friends we've lost along the way
2005-10-05 :: why do we crucify ourselves?
2005-10-04 :: i MUST remain the administrative goddess
2005-10-03 :: -
2005-10-02 :: photopost
2005-10-01 :: put on my blinker and take a turn for the worse
2005-10-01 :: silent next to the carbonated bubbles
2005-09-30 :: if you've been there
2005-09-29 :: let's waste away tonight
2005-09-29 :: i'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a diaryland entry (mwahah. pretty witty, eh?)
2005-09-28 :: maybe this is TMI, but it's an indication of how TRULY EXHAUSTED i've been these days...
2005-09-27 :: courtesy of the weather channel and my heart
2005-09-26 :: there's just no one who gets me like you do
2005-09-26 :: no matter what, someone's always mad at me
2005-09-25 :: writer's block? no, more like writer's brick wall
2005-09-25 :: bleary-eyed and teary-eyed
2005-09-24 :: another beating heart is all i have
2005-09-23 :: takes the wheel when i'm seein' double
2005-09-22 :: and i hope that everything goes through...
2005-09-21 :: the world's a rollercoaster
2005-09-20 :: can't sleep at night, and you wonder why
2005-09-18 :: care to share your time with me?
2005-09-17 :: if you see this post, consider yourself lucky, for i might delete it soon
2005-09-16 :: another friday night...
2005-09-15 :: are we the summer?
2005-09-14 :: identity crisis central
2005-09-13 :: don't say you'll never when you might
2005-09-12 :: take a good look at me now, 'cause i'll still be standing here...
2005-09-12 :: (i) have only been gone 10 (hours), but already i'm wasting away...
2005-09-08 :: -
2005-09-06 :: and in this moment i am happy
2005-09-04 :: embarking on vacation part 2
2005-09-03 :: i've made up my mind, i'll do it over any time
2005-09-02 :: the obligatory photo entry documenting part one of my vacation
2005-09-02 :: just give me a few hours to nap, okay?
2005-08-29 :: north cackalacka!
2005-08-27 :: 9 drops of catharsis
2005-08-27 :: forgetting what my life has cost; wipe away the crimson stains
2005-08-25 :: i'm goin' back to cali, cali cali...(for the first time in 25 years)
2005-08-24 :: so many times we just give it away
2005-08-22 :: like a flower leaning towards the sun
2005-08-22 :: i wanna lounge with you; i do what i gotta do
2005-08-21 :: it's the photograph that makes me wonder why
2005-08-19 :: murmuran por las calles
2005-08-17 :: in excelsis deo
2005-08-17 :: there's nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do
2005-08-16 :: fountains and flourescent lights
2005-08-15 :: whole body bent like fenders
2005-08-11 :: a semi-hiatus, maybe
2005-08-10 :: i am SO suing maybelline
2005-08-09 :: so much for my happy ending
2005-08-08 :: turn on the fan and let me shivver
2005-08-07 :: in the arms of sleep
2005-08-05 :: dim
2005-08-04 :: i need answers for what all the waiting i've done means
2005-08-02 :: you should've hidden it, shouldn't you?
2005-08-01 :: i needed fulfillment; i found what i need in you
2005-07-31 :: go shawty! it's ya birthday!
2005-07-29 :: this is the nasty, spiteful, "i hate my family" entry i've been saying i was going to post and never did. well, here it is, folks
2005-07-28 :: the precipice of 30
2005-07-27 :: oh, i'm SO hittin' the xanax tonight
2005-07-23 :: well, hello to you too!
2005-07-19 :: the night is still young
2005-07-18 :: a super-special shout-out.
2005-07-18 :: words get in the way, when you don't have an eraser or a delete button
2005-07-16 :: i'm counting UFOs; i signal them with my lighter
2005-07-14 :: just got paid, it's thursday niiiiight!
2005-07-13 :: i just wanna be all alone
2005-07-11 :: it's been awhile...
2005-07-08 :: we condone all types of kinky-l0ve f3tishes, all stimulants and all sedatives
2005-07-07 :: you feel alive...is that what it is?
2005-07-05 :: about a 4
2005-07-04 :: why aren't you here with me tonight
2005-07-03 :: new kids on the block had a bunch of hits, chinese food makes me sick
2005-07-03 :: i believe what you are; i believe in you
2005-07-02 :: vroom, indeed
2005-07-01 :: kelly and i both have pretty, french manicured nails
2005-06-30 :: there are nice people in the world. unfortunately, most of the time you have to go online to find them
2005-06-29 :: can you keep up?
2005-06-28 :: it's yet to be determined
2005-06-27 :: it's official!
2005-06-26 :: doin' the Nestea plunge!
2005-06-24 :: maybe we've been living with our eyes half open
2005-06-23 :: getting better, hopefully
2005-06-22 :: tell me somebody's watching over me
2005-06-21 :: it's kinda like math class - the answers are in the back of the book, but you still have to show your work
2005-06-20 :: don't you know i'm numb, man
2005-06-18 :: just get it.
2005-06-16 :: i'd never lie to you - unless i had to; i'll do what i got to
2005-06-15 :: worth the sacrifice
2005-06-15 :: sighness
2005-06-14 :: sunheatpoisonoushotsickness
2005-06-14 :: verbal dropkick
2005-06-13 :: wish you were here
2005-06-11 :: drunkity drunk drunk drunk
2005-06-10 :: you made me feel alright for once in my life
2005-06-09 :: the times that i feel nothing
2005-06-09 :: it's never easy, and that's why it's my life
2005-06-08 :: yeah, you know, i really needed a brush with death tonight
2005-06-06 :: how can i be a convenience when i'm not even convenient?
2005-06-06 :: i can't see 'em comin' down my eyes, so i gotta make this song cry
2005-06-05 :: listen to the DJ - dance, dance dance and go crazy
2005-06-04 :: listen, baby, let's be for real
2005-06-04 :: i lie awake, my body shakes with just one thought of you
2005-06-03 :: honesty or mystery, tell me, i 'm not scared anymore
2005-06-02 :: wow, i haven't had a multiple post day for a while
2005-06-02 :: a certain sacrifice
2005-06-02 :: god help you if you are a phoenix and you dare to rise up from the ash
2005-06-01 :: all your dreams are on their way
2005-06-01 :: i imagine what my body would sound like slamming against those rocks
2005-05-31 :: so much to say! but not now
2005-05-28 :: i came in the door, yeah i said it before, i never let the stress get me down no more
2005-05-27 :: i'm wonderin' why i got of bed at all
2005-05-26 :: i'm aware what the rules are
2005-05-26 :: looking back at me, i see that i never really got it right
2005-05-25 :: it's all a big train wreck
2005-05-25 :: too long to wait. you close your eyes over us.
2005-05-24 :: everyone i know goes away in the end
2005-05-23 :: car search 2005!
2005-05-21 :: more than just a leitmotif
2005-05-20 :: would you believe...?
2005-05-19 :: don't you see, don't you see that the charade is over?
2005-05-19 :: dancing in the desert; blowing up the sunshine
2005-05-18 :: why hold it if i can pass it around?
2005-05-17 :: my dad
2005-05-16 :: slow down, don't fuck with my high
2005-05-12 :: drop a heart, break a name
2005-05-11 :: automotive strife
2005-05-11 :: drugs are fun
2005-05-10 :: follow me and don't look down you're alright
2005-05-09 :: sweet and plain unsingable name
2005-05-06 :: i am but one small instrument
2005-05-05 :: i'm sorry, so sorry...
2005-05-04 :: eight hundred fifty
2005-05-03 :: it's my boyfriend's birthday, so go make nice and wish him a happy day, dammit!
2005-05-02 :: awww. you guys missed me!
2005-04-28 :: i think i love you, so what am i so afraid of?
2005-04-27 :: to the window, to the wall
2005-04-26 :: i had to pay my way through college SOMEHOW!
2005-04-25 :: ...things your money should be handlin'
2005-04-24 :: another place to find me
2005-04-24 :: i'll give you everything and more
2005-04-23 :: satiny, lacy things make me happy
2005-04-22 :: understand before you judge
2005-04-22 :: just to get knocked down
2005-04-21 :: sour apple scented bubbles
2005-04-21 :: so long and goodnight (aka something i wrote either way too late at night or way too early in the AM)
2005-04-19 :: feel like heaven watching over me
2005-04-18 :: a beautiful day can still be a sad one
2005-04-18 :: not M.I.A.
2005-04-13 :: MY CRIB!
2005-04-12 :: if i was a rich girl, nananananananana....
2005-04-11 :: i can sense it; something important is about to happen
2005-04-10 :: i was hoping you might change your mind
2005-04-09 :: just get dressed, don't do this
2005-04-08 :: ...is just another heartache on my list
2005-04-08 :: forever thankful
2005-04-07 :: here i am
2005-04-06 :: move update
2005-04-06 :: ta-ta for now!
2005-04-05 :: do you ever wonder why?
2005-04-04 :: all i wanted was the simple things
2005-04-04 :: under pressure!
2005-04-02 :: tomorrow, will it really come?
2005-04-02 :: fanlistings
2005-04-02 :: tylenol pm and the Pope
2005-04-01 :: who's gonna hold you down when you shake?
2005-04-01 :: fell to pieces, and i'm still fallin'
2005-03-31 :: you still haven't called me
2005-03-31 :: you still haven't called me
2005-03-31 :: g'day mate!
2005-03-30 :: i took a road trip to heaven, if only in my mind
2005-03-29 :: the first in a long line of mental health days
2005-03-28 :: can you remember who i was, can you still feel it?
2005-03-28 :: don't wanna sound full of myself or rude
2005-03-27 :: happy easter. or something
2005-03-25 :: c'mon let's fall in love
2005-03-25 :: so much for that...
2005-03-25 :: passing the torch
2005-03-24 :: mer is icky sicky
2005-03-24 :: is this TMI?
2005-03-23 :: poor little diaryland
2005-03-22 :: i am vindicated!
2005-03-21 :: how things get so crazy
2005-03-19 :: everything changes
2005-03-17 :: amazing, still it seems
2005-03-16 :: this feeling's got me twisted
2005-03-15 :: a chair is not a house, and a house is not a home
2005-03-14 :: lately i've been wishing i had one desire
2005-03-14 :: dreams of conor
2005-03-13 :: somebody's cold one is giving me chills
2005-03-13 :: spit my soul through the wire
2005-03-11 :: reunited, and it feels so good!
2005-03-10 :: step by step...i really think it's just a matter of time
2005-03-09 :: drunken burbling. shocker
2005-03-08 :: and you're consuming me violently
2005-03-08 :: cuddling close to blankets and sheets, i am alone in my defeat
2005-03-07 :: dark clouds may hang on me sometimes...
2005-03-07 :: i need tips on how to make it thru today, because i don't know if i can...
2005-03-06 :: we bottled and shelved all the regrets
2005-03-06 :: MERCY!
2005-03-06 :: my darlin', what matters is what hasn't been
2005-03-05 :: in between the light of day
2005-03-04 :: i make believe that you arehere
2005-03-04 :: considerations
2005-03-04 :: considerations
2005-03-03 :: everybody needs a little time away
2005-03-03 :: (low carb) candy's dandy, but liquor's quicker. and it numbs back pain, too.
2005-03-02 :: "bacardi slang" by kardinal offishal is a great song
2005-03-02 :: i am a whiny bitch today, but it's justified
2005-03-01 :: so, you think you can hold the world up by a string
2005-03-01 :: curbs are a good thing
2005-02-28 :: i really HATE the song "goodies"
2005-02-27 :: that's all there is, nothing more
2005-02-25 :: i shall ask you this once again
2005-02-24 :: and the same old song, they're playing it again
2005-02-23 :: home is where you make it, love
2005-02-22 :: you give me fever....FEVER!
2005-02-22 :: back and sick
2005-02-18 :: strong island reprazent!
2005-02-17 :: g-g-g-G-UNIT! (the title has nothing to do with the entry)
2005-02-17 :: cliffhanger
2005-02-17 :: sleep sucks. lack of sleep sucks
2005-02-16 :: so many mistakes come back home from bars
2005-02-16 :: memo to:
2005-02-15 :: tonight, tonight, it's on tonight
2005-02-15 :: grammy review part 1
2005-02-15 :: let the good times roll!
2005-02-14 :: cupid and candy hearts and stuff
2005-02-12 :: she dreams a champagne dream, strawberry surprise, pink linen on white paper
2005-02-11 :: is this an illusion?
2005-02-11 :: redundancy much?
2005-02-10 :: i've been locked inside that house, all the while you hold the key
2005-02-10 :: for i cannot find the words to say...
2005-02-09 :: make yourself a photograph and laugh at me, please
2005-02-09 :: please let my mom be okay
2005-02-08 :: i saw you, and you saved me from myself
2005-02-07 :: turn out the light, just say goodnight to yourself
2005-02-07 :: zzzzzzzz hah? huh? wha?? zzzzz
2005-02-04 :: digging into the scars that never quite heal
2005-02-04 :: i'm a hustla, homie
2005-02-03 :: houston, and the trouble with mental illness
2005-02-02 :: i need the space to say whatever i like
2005-02-02 :: my life ain't pretty, but apparently i am (aka i love you guys so much!)
2005-02-01 :: disclaimer
2005-01-31 :: i only hope that i won't disappoint you
2005-01-31 :: like you was just another shorty i put the naughty on
2005-01-29 :: here goes nothin'
2005-01-28 :: playa, please...i'm the macaroni with the cheese
2005-01-27 :: if i could relive my life, i know what i would change
2005-01-26 :: is it too late for me to find my way home?
2005-01-26 :: take my hand, take my life - take take take take take take it away
2005-01-26 :: later today on Action News...
2005-01-25 :: the omnipresent "waaah waaah poor me" meredithentry
2005-01-24 :: i don't want "this'll do" to become a recurring theme in my life
2005-01-23 :: you're dropping out; my battery is low
2005-01-22 :: i believe i can flyyyyyyy
2005-01-21 :: never before and never since, i promise...
2005-01-21 :: there's no title for this
2005-01-20 :: is there anyone out there? anyone else outside?
2005-01-19 :: it takes my pain away!
2005-01-18 :: you're going to hollywood!
2005-01-18 :: labor issues
2005-01-14 :: you seem so out of context, in this gaudy apartment complex
2005-01-13 :: thanks for making me a fighter
2005-01-12 :: not again...
2005-01-11 :: don't forget to stop at the drug store on your way home
2005-01-11 :: maybe the stress will be GOOD for my diet?
2005-01-09 :: wasting my time in the waiting line
2005-01-08 :: always learning...
2005-01-07 :: a concert, a rant about stuffy businesspeople, and what i'm gonna do with the money!
2005-01-06 :: for all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me if i fall, if i fall down
2005-01-05 :: i believe in you, i'd give up everything...
2005-01-04 :: let's just get into the car and drive
2005-01-04 :: being cold helps your metabolism, right?
2005-01-03 :: the happy "happy new year" entry
2005-01-03 :: some things never change
2004-12-29 :: what the hell is auld lang syne anyway?
2004-12-29 :: i know this love is passing time, passing through like liquid. i'm drunk in my desire
2004-12-28 :: directionally clueless, in all possible ways
2004-12-27 :: you could help solve this case for me...(written this afternoon at work, while i was WAY bored)
2004-12-27 :: my christmas story, by meredith elaine
2004-12-25 :: tis the season. i don't know what for, though
2004-12-24 :: fa la fucking la
2004-12-22 :: dedicated to poetical
2004-12-22 :: happy golden days of yore, my ass.
2004-12-21 :: email snippits
2004-12-20 :: my blue car currently looks grey-ish white. god, i love the winter
2004-12-17 :: same survey, different year!
2004-12-17 :: part two of the howie day story, which actually has howie in it this time
2004-12-16 :: stay tuned! i swear!
2004-12-16 :: part one of the "OMFG I GOT A PICTURE WITH HOWIE DAY" story, that actually doesn't contain Howie (yet)
2004-12-15 :: oh goodness, mer's gettin' all emotional again (in a good way this time, i swear!)
2004-12-15 :: i don't know how i got this way, i'll never be alright
2004-12-15 :: so far, the minuses are outweighing the pluses
2004-12-14 :: happy homemaker, i am not.
2004-12-14 :: 8 maids a-milking! (if my true love gave me that, i'd be like, "WTF???")
2004-12-13 :: fuck you, fuck you, and fuck you too
2004-12-13 :: you like me! you REALLY like me!
2004-12-13 :: bought a six pack at the liquor store and we drank it in the car
2004-12-12 :: this year, to save me from tears, i'll give it to someone special
2004-12-11 :: and this is why i will never lose weight
2004-12-09 :: meredith 101
2004-12-09 :: a sad day in music
2004-12-08 :: who's the cheesebitch NOW?!?!?
2004-12-07 :: apparently cheesebitches are all the rage
2004-12-07 :: aren't there more important things to worry about than STAMPS??
2004-12-06 :: see meredith
2004-12-06 :: it ended way too quickly
2004-12-03 :: from another galaxy, my heart's at zero gravity
2004-12-02 :: uno, dos, tres, CATORCE!
2004-12-01 :: i'm a psychological adrenaline junkie
2004-11-30 :: oh what fun it is to ride!
2004-11-29 :: joyful and triumphant
2004-11-28 :: santa can't bring me what i need
2004-11-28 :: extras
2004-11-28 :: meredith on the internet sucks all the power out of hatfield, pa. film at 11.
2004-11-28 :: yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
2004-11-27 :: and the main course this evening will be a lovely rib roast
2004-11-25 :: happy thanksgiving!
2004-11-24 :: owie owie owie
2004-11-23 :: never on the left, 'cuz my right's my good ear
2004-11-23 :: with truth and grace
2004-11-22 :: it gets colder day by day
2004-11-22 :: survey snagged from someone on el jay
2004-11-21 :: with a gun and a pack of sandwiches
2004-11-21 :: i'll give it to someone special
2004-11-20 :: letter from the committee
2004-11-20 :: and i can't sleep without you
2004-11-19 :: and what have you done?
2004-11-19 :: if you came around, i'd leave the scars today
2004-11-17 :: even the best fall down sometimes
2004-11-16 :: to advance, or not to advance, i hear you laughing
2004-11-15 :: please tell me this is an effect of the alcoholism
2004-11-15 :: let heaven and nature sing
2004-11-14 :: i hope you have fun...
2004-11-13 :: (taking) back sunday (heh. get it?)
2004-11-13 :: our hearts were singing
2004-11-12 :: somebody ordered pancakes, i just sip the syzzurp
2004-11-12 :: losing faith in this world
2004-11-12 :: moving out tonight, making phones that hot to hold
2004-11-11 :: retrace the steps, as if we forgot
2004-11-10 :: just ask the question, come untie the knot, say you won't care
2004-11-09 :: and you really didn't know...
2004-11-09 :: c'mon shake yo' body baby do that conga!
2004-11-09 :: ctrl+alt+DELETE
2004-11-08 :: i won't be made useless, or be idle with despair
2004-11-04 :: get down on your knees, whisper what i need: something pretty
2004-11-04 :: if THIS entry gets eaten too, i'm giving up
2004-11-03 :: not tonight
2004-11-03 :: 4 more years
2004-11-02 :: don't make me send p. diddy after you!
2004-11-01 :: everything i want to say, and nothing i ever will
2004-10-28 :: i'm the only one that floats below the rest of the angels
2004-10-27 :: i have to learn to let you crash down
2004-10-27 :: funny how i'm nervous still; i've always been the easy kill
2004-10-27 :: waffling, again, as i tend to do
2004-10-26 :: but it kills me to know, it's not a situation, that you'll never know
2004-10-26 :: all the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
2004-10-25 :: if a fashion ad were here, you'd be in it
2004-10-24 :: a miracle on maple avenue
2004-10-21 :: i need to get fucked up tonight.
2004-10-21 :: just like yesterday
2004-10-21 :: kill me, please
2004-10-20 :: i see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
2004-10-19 :: i dropped my heart into a puddle
2004-10-18 :: quote of the day
2004-10-18 :: hope and promise
2004-10-16 :: diddy on dawn to the don don diggy dawn
2004-10-14 :: oh good gawwwwwd
2004-10-14 :: let's play a game! fill in the blanks!
2004-10-13 :: please tell me...
2004-10-13 :: better late than never? what a crock of shit!
2004-10-12 :: i felt he found my letters and read each one out loud
2004-10-11 :: special
2004-10-11 :: in 1492, columbus sailed the ocean blue
2004-10-10 :: no one really knows why this is happening
2004-10-10 :: i want the truth from you, gimme the truth, even if it hurts me
2004-10-09 :: high on life, or high on percoset?
2004-10-08 :: BUSTED!
2004-10-07 :: self destruction, you're headed for self destruction
2004-10-07 :: and your eyes must do some raining if you're ever gonna grow
2004-10-06 :: you can't have safety in numbers if you're all alone
2004-10-05 :: i need to formulate a plan
2004-10-04 :: the darkest pit in me
2004-10-04 :: i don't seem obvious, do i?
2004-09-30 :: broken this fragile thing now
2004-09-30 :: i wish i was special, you're so fucking special
2004-09-29 :: asdhfklahdsf!
2004-09-29 :: legal shmegal, aka "i hate my life today"
2004-09-28 :: you offer a la carte
2004-09-27 :: clickyclickyclicky
2004-09-24 :: to all the "whoms" it may concern
2004-09-21 :: i've been alone all along
2004-09-20 :: come and join the living, it's not so far from you, and it's getting nearer, soon it will all be true
2004-09-20 :: ancient chinese secret, eh?
2004-09-18 :: shiny happy people
2004-09-17 :: something's always wrong
2004-09-17 :: crying is no way to start a day
2004-09-16 :: while her memory worked in reverse
2004-09-16 :: no one's at the door
2004-09-16 :: la la la
2004-09-16 :: syncopated
2004-09-15 :: that is the story of my life
2004-09-15 :: they're getting shirts together
2004-09-13 :: convince yourself that everything is alright, 'cuz it already is
2004-09-13 :: alma mater ours always...?
2004-09-13 :: this last-ditch effort crap has GOT to go
2004-09-12 :: slip into the car, go driving to the farthest star
2004-09-11 :: about you and all the little things you do
2004-09-11 :: about you and all the little things you do
2004-09-10 :: a very special episode of "the meredith show"
2004-09-10 :: FEEDBACK AND ADVICE NEEDED. LIKE, NOW.
2004-09-09 :: it's getting better all the time
2004-09-08 :: to whom it may concern
2004-09-08 :: welcome to that day
2004-09-08 :: it's a monday-like wednesday (already)
2004-09-08 :: breakin' down
2004-09-07 :: ain't nothing but a G (mail) thing, baby!
2004-09-06 :: it must make you sad to know that no one cares at all
2004-09-06 :: cinnamon toast crunch
2004-09-05 :: ...i can finally rest my head on something real
2004-09-05 :: the joys of partying down the jersey shore
2004-09-04 :: and the calm away by the storm is chasen
2004-09-03 :: she stuck a note on the screen door - "sorry but i got to go"
2004-09-03 :: you can't change the way you feel
2004-09-02 :: one day i'll go dancing on the moon
2004-09-01 :: when i try to get your attention, you ignore me everytime
2004-09-01 :: i've got the ick
2004-08-25 :: there's no shuttle for us to charter
2004-08-25 :: look over your shoulder
2004-08-24 :: and i'm never really sure if you'll take what i'm saying the right way
2004-08-23 :: i gots to bring it to you cowards and it's gonna be quick
2004-08-23 :: realization
2004-08-19 :: i got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one
2004-08-18 :: because i'm broken when i'm open and i don't feel like i am strong enough
2004-08-18 :: there's a smile when the pain comes, the pain's gonna make everything alright
2004-08-18 :: it's bad today
2004-08-17 :: inspired
2004-08-16 :: everything has got a sense of permanence attached to it
2004-08-15 :: zooma zoom zoom yeah we got the boom!
2004-08-13 :: i'm sorry that i'm not (fill in the blank)
2004-08-13 :: it's not even 9am yet!
2004-08-13 :: stream of barely consciousness
2004-08-12 :: i wanna hold you high, and steal your pain
2004-08-11 :: hey, what's the point of this? hey, what's your favorite song?
2004-08-11 :: to go, or not to go? (aka the socialphobic dilemma)
2004-08-11 :: public service announcement
2004-08-10 :: why can't you just be happy? why can't you just be happy?
2004-08-09 :: particle by particle she slowly changes
2004-08-08 :: i heart emo boys
2004-08-08 :: we won't stand for hazy eyes anymore
2004-08-06 :: i've saved the tickets from the shows that we've been to, and a thousand other memories of you
2004-08-05 :: what can i say? what am i gonna do?
2004-08-05 :: add this to the list of things NOT to say to a hypochondriac
2004-08-05 :: the wonders of nature, and the nature of me
2004-08-04 :: to starving for attention, hating convention, hating pretention
2004-08-03 :: crappy recappy
2004-08-02 :: am i too obvious to preach it?
2004-07-30 :: i figure, somehow, i gotta letcha know
2004-07-29 :: are you positive?
2004-07-29 :: it's all about STEALTH
2004-07-29 :: close your eyes just settle, settle
2004-07-29 :: ...or maybe it's my spleen
2004-07-28 :: shake it like a pro, gimma whatcha got
2004-07-28 :: she works hard for the money, so you better treat her right
2004-07-27 :: i suggest you all roll with da clique who you wit
2004-07-27 :: happy almost birthday to me
2004-07-27 :: i'm not your star, isn't that what you said, what you thought the song meant?
2004-07-26 :: the feeling is such a thrill; oh why don't you anger me
2004-07-26 :: sorry, i deleted an entry
2004-07-25 :: places that you're going, places that i haven't been
2004-07-24 :: everybody loves to love you when you're far away
2004-07-23 :: my heart is full and my door's always open
2004-07-23 :: gotta handle your business, gotta get in it to win it
2004-07-22 :: would you mean this, please...?
2004-07-22 :: oh say can you see?
2004-07-21 :: some bizarre skin disorder
2004-07-21 :: home
2004-07-16 :: miss me
2004-07-15 :: i could ask anyone about you
2004-07-15 :: how cool is that? so i went to your room and read your diary
2004-07-14 :: the closest thing to perfect, but the farthest thing from me
2004-07-13 :: how do you do it? your back's against the wall
2004-07-13 :: here i go, scream my lungs out
2004-07-12 :: buzzin' and a-flyin'
2004-07-11 :: and all the scars of the nevers and maybes die
2004-07-10 :: dividing canaan, piece by piece
2004-07-10 :: touch me, take me to that other place; reach me, i know i'm not a hopeless case
2004-07-09 :: a real dirtbag, no she doesn't know what she's missin'
2004-07-08 :: i'd say it so slowly, just soft enough to make you cry yourself to sleep
2004-07-07 :: i lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless
2004-07-06 :: "de nile ain't just a river in egypt"
2004-07-05 :: do you know what you're doing to me?
2004-07-05 :: laying back with the headphones on, a pen in hand takes me to the dawn
2004-07-03 :: it's just my chance to say...
2004-07-02 :: yay for the shore
2004-07-02 :: guys, you all know i'm bipolar, so the past few entries should come as no surprise
2004-07-02 :: can you still hear the last goodnight?
2004-07-01 :: but how could I miscalculate... perfect eyes will have perfect hate
2004-07-01 :: inside i realize, that i'm the one confused
2004-06-30 :: a toast to you, your whisper, your smile
2004-06-30 :: but still, you say it's not right
2004-06-29 :: closer to where i started, chasing after you
2004-06-28 :: i swear that i can go on forever again
2004-06-28 :: the sequel!
2004-06-28 :: movie soundtrack
2004-06-27 :: lend me some sugar, i am yo' neighbor!
2004-06-27 :: so this is odd, the painful realization that all has gone wrong
2004-06-26 :: another personal disaster, there's nowhere to go but down
2004-06-26 :: don't fear the future
2004-06-25 :: there you go tellin' me no again
2004-06-25 :: i will never know, 'cause you will never show
2004-06-25 :: so won't you kill me, so i die happy?
2004-06-25 :: no one ever has to know
2004-06-25 :: diaryrings
2004-06-24 :: to her own reflection she said "i will hold on"
2004-06-24 :: interesting
2004-06-23 :: i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be, baby
2004-06-22 :: no need to worry, no need to cry
2004-06-22 :: who wouldn't be the one you love?
2004-06-21 :: just one of those things
2004-06-21 :: somewhere i belong
2004-06-20 :: aw shit, it's a gangsta heist!
2004-06-19 :: ...and it's getting worse
2004-06-18 :: i'm going to regret this later...
2004-06-18 :: you probably think this song is about you
2004-06-18 :: hey mama!
2004-06-17 :: gather my insufficiencies and place them in your hands
2004-06-17 :: an entry about maybes
2004-06-16 :: i've been waiting; system's failing
2004-06-16 :: and all the things i deserve, for being such a good girl
2004-06-15 :: when you call my name, it's like a little prayer
2004-06-15 :: only i would see a flower as a metaphor for my life
2004-06-14 :: d-land be damned
2004-06-14 :: it's not so simple
2004-06-14 :: i'm starting to panic...wait...
2004-06-10 :: if i'm just bad news, then you're a liar
2004-06-10 :: close your eyes, hold your breath, make a wish
2004-06-09 :: getting the hint?
2004-06-09 :: moderation
2004-06-09 :: come lay down, but not necessarily to sleep
2004-06-08 :: poetry in motion
2004-06-08 :: aftermath
2004-06-07 :: my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
2004-06-07 :: updated
2004-06-07 :: where do i draw the line?
2004-06-07 :: boats + massages + corvettes + apartments in philly = NOTHING THAT I FUCKING WANT!
2004-06-06 :: and maybe i'll find out a way to make it back someday
2004-06-04 :: beginning
2004-05-26 :: first entry