stream of barely consciousness
every song. it's every fucking song. and it makes me insane because i'm thinking too much, and emoting too much, because, hey, that's what we emo chicks do.
no. there's no sense to it. sometimes words just make their way from my fingers to keys. as tonight shows. but it's all be crap lately. for the most part.
i can't even express my angst anymore. not in that supposedly eloquent manner i once displayed.
all i know is that i curl up with pillows, air conditioner on full blast, praying for a sign. pleading for relief. craving security in my mind, and every other part of me that's breathing.
do NOT forget to breathe.
i think i can do that.
try to breathe easy.
oh HELL no. that'll never happen. now you're just being silly and asking too much of me.
edges of eggshells, everyday. fragile faberge eggshells.
as always, though, i'll (eventually) sleep. then i'll wake up, and everything will seemingly be okay again.
as always.
posted by: less-than3
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