meredithelaine
you can take the girl out of jersey, but you can't take the jersey out of the girl

this is THEEEE WEEKEND for THEEEE LETTER!


2006-01-20 The current mood of meredithelaine at www.imood.com

well, it looks like this will be the weekend that i tell the parents that i'm moving. i plan to wait until they leave for church on sunday, and then leave the letter and a cd-burned copy of "reflection" by christina aguilera (from the movie "mulan") on the counter for them when they return. yes, the cd is a cheesy tactic, BUT music is my thing, as you know, and the song says it pretty damn well. almost as well as "because of you" by kelly clarkson, just less...stinging. and it's bad enough i'm going to be moving across the country; i'd rather not be the one to instigate the burning of the bridges through song as well.

but yes. i figure, after church they will refreshed and feeling spiritually happy and whole. they will be of a hopefully open mindset to read my letter. i will be hiding in my room, of course. but the letter will say that i'm there and ready to talk, if they want to.

i'm ashamed that i can't initiate this face-to-face. but i'm better on paper than in person. i get nervous and tongue-tied, and i forget all the important things i want to say -- in REALLY important matters such as this. i can't let anything slip by on this one. not to mention the fact that, of course, my father intimidates the hell out of me and always manages to make me feel 7 years old.

i'm so scared, you guys. and the support that everyone has given (over myspace, dland, LJ -- since i'll be x-posting this everywhere) has been SO SO SO important to me. i hope you all know that. even though i still whine and cry and have nightmares all the freakin' time.

i was going to post the letter, actually, for feedback and what-not. but i thought better of that. that puts it too OUT THERE for really really randoms to read. BUT, should anyone WANT to read it, shoot me an email at apromisekept (at) gmail (dot) com, and if i trust you, REALLY REALLY trust you, i'll send it to you. which basically means, if you're one of the people on my buddy list, friendslist, one of the bipolarcrew, one of the howiegirls, one of my dearies from back in the day, etc. etc., you're good to go. if you're a random stalker, though...not so much. sorry. if you wanted in, you should have made yourself known during national de-lurking week. sucks to be you. ha!

anyway. today is friday, which means (say it with me now) ::bagelday::

it also means that it's 8am and i'm sitting here still with a towel on my head and i need to get my ass in gear and head out to the LastChanceMobilMart. man, that's one place i'm going to miss when i head to SD, for sure.

have a good day, my loves. xox

posted by: less-than3

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7:58 a.m.
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