to the window, to the wall
like i said, fitness queen, back in full effect, y'all.
that's pretty much been the highlight of my days, lately. i work out, i get my back cracked, i spend way too much time online and watching FUSE.
this past sunday, i was looking at the classified ads. the assisted living place that my grandmother lived at before she died is hiring. for a HUMAN RESOURCES ADMINISTRATIVE ASSISTANT. i might apply. not that i want to go back to work yet. but i may have no choice. it's not like i'm rollin' in the dough.
i'm afraid that if i say "i'm gonna temp, i'm gonna temp," then i'll just keep putting it off and not work AT ALL. but i don't necessarily want to get a perm job (in my old hometown, no less!), and bind myself to NJ for a year or more.
although, i have semi-decided that if i DO get a perm job, and for one reason or another decide to run away from home in 6 months or something, then so be it. i can't live and die by what looks good on the resume, right?
no job that i take here will get me, say, $50K/year. the only chance i'd have of that is if i was fluent in Excel, PowerPoint, LotusNotes and all that bullshit. and worked in a "corporate" (read: stuffy, nasty, fake-ass) environment.
suffice it to say that i won't be making that kind of cash. so i won't be able to afford an apartment ANYWHERE in NJ, unless i want a studio in irvington. which would still be a stretch, financially. and since all of my jersey friends are either married or otherwise co-habitating with someone, i'd most likely (99.44%) be living with a random.
which ain't happening. as much as living by myself eventually sucked my will to live, i am TOO old for roommate bickering bullshit. i haven't had to live with anyone i didn't know since freshman year of college. i'm not doing it at 30 year old.
so, that basically leaves me with very few options.
i can't even afford east bumblefuck, NY. i could have stayed in philadelphia, if i wanted to risk my life in north philly.
arkansas is lookin' better and better every day...
posted by: less-than3
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