meredithelaine
you can take the girl out of jersey, but you can't take the jersey out of the girl

vengeful and spiteful. cranky and bitter.


2005-10-18 The current mood of meredithelaine at www.imood.com

call me a petty, jealous little bitch.

call me what you will.

but honestly, for the most part, i'm a very very good girl. i think i'm kind, i think that i'm caring. no, i'm not without my faults. hell, who is? i'm not perfect, but i'm certainly more good than bad.

so answer me this:

why the FUCK is it that people that i know who sure as hell don't deserve it, are living the "good life," or, at the very least, living a life that is infinitely better than mine is right now?

people who are mean, selfish, spiteful, vengeful, and who have blown ME off...get to live a breezy lil' life. while i live day after day, wondering what the FUCK it is that i'm living FOR? begging whatever god or spirit or being is out there, when the fuck is it MY turn, and just...WHY has my life panned out in the pathetic, painful way (for the most part) that it has?

YES, dammit, this is a fucking self-serving, pathetic "WHY ME" post.

i'm just really sick of it. because not only ME, but i can name other people that i know...GOOD people, KIND, caring souls, who are suffering their own personal hell and bad luck. time and time again. and these people don't DESERVE it.

but yet, there are some mean-ass bitches and bastards in this world, who are living without-a-care, and without-a-conscience.

it's a HUGE fucking injustice.

and i wish that i could have written this in a more coherent manner, but i just woke-up from 4 hours of a migraine-pounding, xanax-induced sleep.

yep, i went to bed at 8pm tonight. why? because when things fucking suck the way that they do right now, you don't WANT to stay awake. the less time you are awake, the less you dwell on the shittiness of your life, and the lives of those other people around you who REALLY don't deserve the shit that they're going through.

and that's part of the reason why the thought of going to church with my parents, along with their daily churchy anectdotes, makes me want to vomit.



posted by: less-than3

spoke the truth!

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12:26 a.m.
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