meredithelaine
you can take the girl out of jersey, but you can't take the jersey out of the girl

will they stand their ground


2005-12-11 The current mood of meredithelaine at www.imood.com

it has been an exhausting weekend.

dad is going to be okay. it was not a heart attack. apparently plaque builds up in your arteries over time, and some of this ruptured in one of my dad's arteries, causing a blockage. so they put in a stent to open it up. the procedure went well, and he will be coming home tomorrow.

thank you for your emails, texts, well wishes, etc.

hearing my father gasping for air...seeing him with an oxygen mask on...his skin was GREY...he looked so old...not vibrant...not DAD...it was just...scary.

i went into "crisis mode" and took care of mom. i drove us to the hospital and met my sister there. i drove back to the house and picked up books and other items for dad. i drove mom home. today i ran errands and did the grocery shopping that dad would have normally done. i break the tension with comedy. this is what i do in these situations. i become the one to lean on. i don't know when i was given this role, or why. i didn't ask for it, and i sure didn't want it.

i don't get the chance to break down, or worry, or think "what if"? no one asks me how i'm doing, because i'm concentrating on each task at hand, so of course i'm fine.

and now i feel as if my world is crashing in around me again. i can't go into it right now. i'm too exhausted to write it all out. some other time, perhaps.

but thank you, everyone, as always, for being there. i'm so lucky...

edit: ps -- xanax + hershey's kisses = love (heeheehee!)

posted by: less-than3

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6:40 p.m.
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