but still, you say it's not right
i did something i don't normally do: i took a walk during my lunch break. i have energy to spare. the xenedrine is doing nothing but making me restless and irritable.
it's bad enough that i'm exhausted (again) and melancholy (again). i doped myself up on benedryl last night to try and sleep. no such luck. i was still awake for another hour or 2, and am currently quite groggy.
(notice the trend?)
i took the blocks less travelled in center city. headed up 18th, turned right onto market. headed towards 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd. the number of people decreases. good.
i don't need them to see me tearing up behind my sunglasses.
i listened to that song on repeat a few times, as well as "cautioners", and "walking on a wire".
they just seem to fit, today.
i know what's missing. and there's not a thing i can do about it. i'm powerless.
today is not one of my better days.
i am close to breaking.
posted by: less-than3
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