but it's never good enough to feel right
WHY ARE THEY THE ONES HURTING SO BADLY?
they should not be crying. they shouldn't be feeling alone. or struggling with demons from their pasts. why aren't THEY the people celebrating with the spoils of life? why aren't they living in a pretty house on easy street? (or at least a decent apartment with affordable rent!)
it hurts. i can't do a damn thing, and that's what kills me. i wrote an email to a friend of mine tonight, saying that i felt helpless to help her, because i'm trapped down in my own hole. and all i can do is sit here in my hole and wish for some way out, not just for myself, but for her as well. more for her than for me, really.
it has me so frustrated, because i'm so lucky to have these people in my life. i have learned so much and have grown as a person. but i'm stuck in this crappy place right now and i'm in no position to do anything to return the favors that i've been given. at least as far as i know.
what can i do? tell me, please? because if i can, i will.
i just hope you all know how much i love you.
this is my cosmic hug and cup of hot cocoa.
posted by: less-than3
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