i have to learn to let you crash down

i think i need to punish myself again. actually believing that i was a brilliant orb of sorts.

but i'm dull and crashing. silly of me to think that the euphoric confidence would last.

with only a fraction of a plan, i acted. utterly confused and unsure of this. i hear: nothing. without words, i am not reassured. my own affirmations are not enough. i have no fucking safety net!

(i picture myself, cold and alone, through this winter.)

i wait, anxiously, for the delicious tylenol pm coma to embrace me. to walk outside at 10:28pm. the newspaper told me that the lunar eclipse would be visible then.

i'll wish on the eclipse, instead of a star. maybe i'll be luckier, then...


posted by: less-than3

spoke the truth!

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10:13 p.m.
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