there's nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do

i am working in the Paramus branch office this week, since the admin for their office is on vacay. and since i'm a good workerbee (and i'm getting reimbursed for milage), i agreed to do it.

my sister works 2 days per week at her former-full time job at the superduper pharmaceutical company in Nutley. my NJ geography is actually kinda crappy for this region, but i figured since my grandmother lived in Belleville and went to the Paramus Park Mall, and she lived near Nutley, my sister would be kinda nearby to where i'm currently working.

so i emailed her to see if she wanted to get together after work at the mall (i think there's a Friday's there) and get drinks.

she said no.

because apparently Nutley is a half hour away from Paramus. and she'd HATE to leave gramma and grampa with the little one for too long and she NEVER knows what time her hubby's going to get home from work.

she said that one of these days, she'll have to meet up with me in Parsippany for happy hour or something.

now, she lives about as much in the sticks as i do, so it would take, oh, probably 45 minutes to get to Parsippany from her house.

so the chances of her every doing THAT are slim to none.

i just wanted to get that out there. vent my frustration, if you will. it's not like i don't fucking TRY. heaven forbid she leave her 4 year old son with gramma and grampa for maybe TWO EXTRA HOURS.

i really don't give a FUCK if i sound like a brat right now, because it seems that the few times that i actually make the first effort, i get shot down. this is a recurring theme in my life, it seems. i'm always the one saying "we should have a girls night out" or "we should go to the city" or whatever.

the day that i move out of this house can not come a moment too soon. my family's little world turned quite nicely without me when i was in philly; surely it will continue to revolve wherever i go next.

god, i almost have to think that i don't have ABANDONMENT issues -- i have "NO ONE WILL FUCKING COME TO ME" issues.

(i don't think there's a single word for that, and i don't know where my thesaurus is...)

i can't have abandonment issues when no one's here to leave me in the first place, now can i?

posted by: less-than3

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6:10 p.m.
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